Stuck in my head

“There are so many opportunities in this world!” they say. But yet, we young people get to learn so much of nothingness.

When I graduated high school, I was exceptional in the studies of derivatives. My professor could wake me up in the middle of the night to make me prove the quotient rule, and I would have done it without hesitation.

At that time in my life, I felt superior. What could go wrong? I knew everything I had to know within the school system and was at the top of my class.

However, as the excitement of graduation day subsided, the hats soaring through the sky and the cameras capturing memories, I found myself gazing out of my room window, consumed by a profound sense of uncertainty.

In that introspective moment, a single question echoed in my mind: What should I do now?

A flood of realization hit me, and it disturbed me.

I was faced with the harsh truth that I lacked the knowledge and skills to generate income, and more importantly, I had no clear direction for my life.

I was certain of one thing though: I refused to spend a decade or more studying only to be confined to a monotonous 9-to-5 job.

I yearned for something greater, a purpose that eluded me as I desperately searched for answers. Yet, as I dwelled on these thoughts, the “opportunities” “ that everyone was always talking about seemed slimmer and slimmer.